I found this in my stuff:
“If you don’t make a total commitment to whatever you are doing, then you start looking to bail out the first time the boat starts leaking. Its tough enough getting that boat to shore with everybody rowing, let alone when a person stands up and starts putting their life jacket on.” – unknown author and wise
I’m the kind that would patch holes with my own skin before I would even think about leaving a team I am committed too. Not because I’m better, not because I don’t feel the fear of failing. No, because if I can still see it, I will go for it.
If I don’t see it anymore. I will stop, bring the boat to the closest shore and make sure everybody is complete about the whole thing. I would not have it any other way.
It comes also with not making people wrong for leaving before the end – unnecessary spent energy.
In the past few weeks, I’ve worked a lot on my “vision”. I also discovered that I don’t believe that I can achieve it.
I also got that… I’m doing it alone. I feel the need to create a team of supporters to hold me accountable; who will row with me in their own capacities.
Alone, I forget that I have skills. I lack discipline and ultimately my whole being vibrates with a big “WHATEVER!” “What’s the point?” “The hell with my dreams…”
And I dig myself a big hole of shame and resignation…
Commitment and team will go a long way. Alone with my mind as a teammate, it is a guaranteed shipwreck.
With great respect!
I have been to many places searching for myself. But the greatest journey of all is the one I started within myself. There lies the most beautiful light, music and colours one can expect.
Welcome within, with great respect and love! A.